on the eve of veteran's day

I'm feeling pretty bitter this particular veteran's day eve. the vet we're associated w/ is floudering so badly he's acting extremely out of character the last couple months and has caused turmoil and pain to his wife and children. but this is not the government's fault. it's his. he refuses counseling and drinks to quell the effects of his ptsd. its just easier.

and so here i am, separated from my husband while i desperately look for a job and am told today that even a temp agency isn't able to help me because i haven't worked in the last couple years. "what have you been up to since 2001 then?" and i told her. i was a stay at home mom who got a ba in history and wrote a children's book about ptsd based on my experiences. she was kind enough to suggest some other temp agencies that hire "entry level" clerical positions. it's just sooo frustrating and discouraging and so totally disheartening to the point of tears that the general public just DOESN'T UNDERSTAND the sacrifices made by the SPOUSE of a disabled vet. that when that spouse has to suddenly find herself a job, the fact that she went to school, raised two kids and was a part-time caregiver to a disabled vet doesn't matter. doesn't count as any sort of work. the vets and disabled vets have a nice little box they can check stating they are such things. but there is nothing for the SPOUSE of the disabled vet to check. that she hasn't just been sitting on her ass the last 8 years. there's no special treatment for the spouse. there SHOULD be. yes...i feel there should be! we make ample sacrifices that are completely taken for granted....

done venting for now. but still upset. maybe someday i'll figure out a way to change things.